I am so truely devastated and heartbroken,fight the tears back every day,such a battle.never in a million years did i think this would happen to us mum.still feels like your here when i close my eyes i see you when i go to sleep your there.it doesnt feel real.i cant with every breath in body understand or believe it.i never will.ever.i thought it would be you and me always.i took for granted you would always be here.i wish i could turn back time,so much i wanted you to know and so much i wanted to help you with.i live with so much guilt mum,i wanted to make things better for you.i never got the chance,maybe i will in the next life,i hope so and i hope you will be waiting there for me.xxxx