Hi my best friend an sister oh well ruth nothink has changed i still feel the same as the day you left us if not i feel worse because i miss you so much what i would give to see you again.i realy cant take it in i have a constant sick feel in my stomache an a pain in my head because all i do is think about you i just dont no how where going to get through this christmas please look over us an keep us all strong love an miss you so much i cant put into words how i feel but believe me it is awful love you xxxxxxxx