miss you mum i hate this time if year without you.every christmas song on the radio and all the decorations makes me feel so sad and full of loss.im thankful for my wonderful memories of how special you always made it for us,but its just too painful to think about, i cant help feeling sad about it all that you are not here with me.christmas is always a time for family an sharing but it just makes me feel worse because i dont have you.i always wonder were you are.if you are around me or somewhere in the universe.i dont know what happens after this life but i hope some day i get to see you again.love and miss you so much my heart is still so full of loss.will it ever get better mum? i hope so.it will be a long life if this is how its going to feel.love you endlessly xxxxxxxx